dear "friends"

Kay seriously people?? What is everybody's problem? Stop fucking making stupid assumptions. I hate this about all of you. First of all, stop fucking being mad at Jake. Because I was the one who instigated us making out. Yeah. Me. ME ME ME, I I I. I started it. I wanted to kiss him. So stop assuming that Jake is at fault. Sure, neither of us should have allowed it to happen because of all the fucking drama that could and HAS ensued, and sure, Jake should have and DID consider everyone's feelings about the matter-we talked about it- but it was not his fucking fault that all of you now have a problem with him. You instead should direct all of your stupid problems at me. Yes ME. Because I was the one that pushed him into it. But even then, none of this would have been a problem if certain people didn't stalk my fucking life! It's a private blog, THANKS for leaving it as such... jesus. I try not to be the cause of drama with you people because it's always such a HUGE fucking problem! Nobody ever benefits from you talking behind each other's backs and posting cryptic updates on your stupid online friend sites. Sure I'm being a huge fucking hypocrite right now but this was the only way I could get it all out to you at the same time without texting each of you or something equally as fucking stupid. God, technology sucks. If you fucking ever have any problem with me in future you better just say it to my face. I'm fucking sick of it.

Second of all, yes, I AM hanging out with matt again. No, I do not have any intention of dating him again. Thank you for making your stupid assumptions and thinking that without asking me what my true intentions are. I wish the rest of you could find in your hearts to forgive those who make mistakes like he did. Like Jake has. Like I have. We all fucking make mistakes.

Thanks for tuning in people. Now fucking grow up already...

Hah I feel like the world's biggest hypocrite right now. Oh wait. I AM.